hmmmmm....

dunno wad 2 write le....

tis few daes is kinda bad fer mi...
no mood.....
work,study,work,study...
dat's my life now...

but i'm gonna change it soon...
hope i can get e key 2 unlock myself frm my past...
i've let it affect myself badly.....
till e stage where i flung my common test last yr badly...

haiz...

wad's done is done...

next up fer mi is my common test n my final exams le..

i must free myself frm my past asap...

....... 10:40 PM

hmmm.....

jus woke up not too long ago...
havin lesson later at 12-3pm...sianz...

den after dat nid go work again n tink of working wif dat new boy.....
feel more sianz le...omg....
i'm still feelin tired frm working n playin bb ytd....
cos ytd wrk frm 7am-5pm den reach hme den meet shiou fer bball at ard 5.45pm at my hse dere...
we play until ard 8pm b4 we go hougang green de long john fer dinner....
den after dat slack till ard 9.30pm den we go off le....

it's been a 3 wks since i last play bb le.....anyway...it's gd 2 plae bb again le...
haha.....

later den i'll update bahx...

tc everyone... 9:49 AM

hmmm.....veri long never update lorx......cos dunno wad 2 sae....
i shall update abt wad happen...

ytd nite i went aunty susan chalet at downtown wif my supervisors they all as well as andy n jack n had a great tym over there...den after dat...we took cab hme along wif wendy,ah tan n tom....den after tom n mi alighted at our destination at ard 10pm+..we go 2 e coffeeshop 2 eat supper..n we chat until ard 11.30pm b4 we go off....haha......hmmm.....wad a pity dat i cant stay there overnight due 2 sch 2dae at 8am but in e end....i didn't went to e lesson cos still feeling veri tired....

sianz....later still gt one re-test at ard 3.30pm n after dat still nid rush down work......hope 2dae not much pple.....n tink of working wif dat new boy jiu sianz le....he's such a jerk...
i'll rather work wif e malay boy compared to him....
nvm.....wo hui ren...

but once we start selling oranges during e wks leading 2 cny....
i'll make sure dat he'll not b wad he's like now...

now i'm praying Tom 2 b transfer back asap...cos once he's back...
my responsibilities n e load on my shoulders will b lighter compared 2 now.....
i'm must tahan at e moment.....

i'll either perform better or even worst when a lot of pressure is on mi...
dat's wad i am.....

gonna go off le.....
9:25 AM

hmmmm....tis few daes never update cos dunno wad 2 write...

anyway....

ytd was a gd dae 4 mi.....

cos after sch went back hme rest awhile till ard 5pm lyk dat den received a call from TOM asking mi 2 go back hougang point ntuc 2 wait 4 him dere cos he's treating us sushi...

he bought frm his own branch at amk fairprice Xtra de....

haha.....

it's been a long tym since i last see him le.....

finalli get 2 meet him le.....

den we stay at hougang point ntuc 2 chat wif e pple over dere till ard 7pm b4 i follow him back hme n wait 4 him under his block while he go change lorx...

den he treat mi dinner at e hong kong de restaraunt outside heartmall at kovan de....

thks 4 e treat....

den after dat go walk walk ard kovan n chat along the way...
den we go hme at ard 10pm+ bahx......

hmmmm...

i'm starting 2 stand up again le....

dat's all 4 2dae.....gonna update later.....

nid go sch at ard 11am+.... 9:04 AM

haiz....

last tym while preparing 4 my common test during e 2nd wk of dec last yr...

i've failed 2 sought out my thoughts n try 2 4get abt e past....

i still cant 4get e events which took place frm oct yr 2006 onwards in which still hurts mi nw...

n up till now....

i still regret losing u as a friend n dat we're now complete strangers......

though i've given up on u le....

i was being forced in2 it de....

haiz.....

n i let it affect my mood badly resulting in mi unable 2 get in2 e right frame of mind 2 study 4 e test.....

haiz....

den when i gt back all of my results ytd n 2dae except the marketing module(which i haven noe my results yet)....

i flung all badly....

getting 28/100 for automatic control

9/30 for semestral project(going 4 a retest soon)

FF(bet 30-40 marks /100) for electrical machines

n F4+ (bet 45-49 marks/100) for maths...
.............................................

haiz...

though i've expect myself 2 fail....

i didn't expect 2 fail so badly..........

haiz......

yr 2007 haf started badly 4 mi.....

will i haf another bad yr jus lyk yr 2006 again???

dat's my worst fear.......

i hope it wont happen.........

but things r veri hard 2 sae.....

i was rite last yr when i 4see dat yr 2006 wont b a gd yr 4 mi n i gt it rite.....

let's hope dat i'm wrong tis tym.....

i've failed 2 achieve wad i wan in yr 2006.....

n i'm going 2 achieve tis yr n e thing dat i nid 2 achieve it asap is...

to sought out my thoughts on some things....

i nid e tym....but hw long will i take??...i dunno.....

to QL.....

u may say....i'm startin 2 give up on HER le....becos dat's e onli way
4 mi bahx......
haiz.....
without mi ard...things will b much better 4 u all bahx.....
perhaps e tym haf come 4 mi 2 let go of things slowly bahx.....

to shimin mei....

i jus wan 2 sae dat.....thks 4 being by my side when i needed u....
n i hate 2 see dat type of despo treating u dat way....
wo zhen de kan bu xia qu.....
sry abt it......


i've failed 2 4get my past esp wad happen in yr 2006....haiz....
....dat's all i cn sae....

dat's all 4 2dae...... 8:17 PM

finalli...it's a new yr liao...

yr 2007 haf finalli arrived le...

BUT...

seriousli speaking...

i dun haf any high hope 4 tis new yr le....

wad happen during e yr 2006...

haf affected mi deeply...

will i ever recover frm it??...

i doubt myself...

sch starting 2molo le....

no mood 2 study le......

haiz..... 9:46 PM